This Is Ridiculous

i'm actually scared of my own room.
i mean the room in ipoh.
i hardly sleep alone in that room since the day me and my family moved into the house.
i'm not sure why, but there's some kind of eerie feeling to that room at night.
especially with those weird nocturnal creatures sound making.
and also thanks to my wild imagination due to excessive horror movies during high school days.

this is no joke.
i am very sure i have tachycardia each time i try to switch off the lights and force myself to sleep.
if you were to measure my blood pressure at that moment, i am positive it will be quite high.
most of the time, i will end up moving my mattress into sisters' room and sleep with them.
i am considering stealing dad's beta blocker to help me sleep. kidding.

sleeping with my sisters actually solved this problem.

never did i realise that both my sisters will eventually leave home to study elsewhere.
now that i have graduated....i will be in ipoh for a very long time.

so last night, youngest sis finally moved to kampar.
which means i had to sleep all alone yesterday.

days before, i have bought 3 packets of glow-in-dark stars to be stuck to the ceiling and wall of my room. so that when the room is in total darkness, i could still see some stars.

but that didn't really help last night.
i heart was pounding real fast.
i kept imagining something was staring at me.

i moved a radio into my room, turned on the radio, and tried to sleep.
the music helped to distract me a little bit, so i slept till 5 am.

i woke up at 5 am, only to toss and turn on the bed again,
i gave up and turned on the lights and went back to sleep.

sigh.....many more nights to go......