See You People

i'm going to taman negara today.
somehow the excitement has gone.

i'm more excited to see jackie in ipoh on 29th.
yes, no joke.

and if some of you are still wondering why i have been taking those progesterone pills..
it's to delay my menstruation.
i don't wanna have to walk around with dysmenorrhea, wade through water with my blood-filled sanitary pad, and most of all...i don't need the hassle of looking for the toilet every 5 hours. that will surely ruin my trip.

but the drawback is.....this stupid medicine is giving me a prolonged and horrible PMS.
i have been pms-ing for the past few days. and it doesn't feel good at all.
when i pms, i think A LOT, which shouldn't be a bad thing, but i think negative thoughts.

i used to think that pms is just an excuse for girls to vent their suppressed anger.
but seriously, it's really uncontrollable.
a small provocation will cause the volcano to erupt.
worst....it will still erupt without the slightest provocation.
just bad mood for no apparent reason.
or depression.

i might have the tendency to abuse antidepressants, or stimulants when i pms in the future.
cause i DON'T LIKE HOW I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW!

okok..kidding.
as long as i don't go to the extent of having suicidal thoughts..i guess it'll be fine.
and if you guys don't want to be verbally/physically harassed by pling, stay away from me during this period. haha.